Thought time was a great healer.

[BoroRedKen]

My god.

Finally charged the phone up that the cops had.

Reading the messages from Carmen whilst i was locked up.

Fuck me that was hard.
 

[Francks left peg]

I can imagine it was a big shock for you Kenny. Stay strong

[BoroRedKen]

Thanks Franck.
👍

[Redsteel (Moderator)]

Chin up mate x

[BoroRedKen]

I cannot find her jewellery and watch though. 🤔

[Ural Quntz]

I cannot find her jewellery and watch though. 🤔

Hospital will have had those - my old fellas wedding ring went missing after he died in JCH

[erimus74]

My god.

Finally charged the phone up that the cops had.

Reading the messages from Carmen whilst i was locked up.

Fuck me that was hard.
 

That must have been so hard & emotional for you Ken
To the point whhen you thought you cant get kickedcanymore then you open all those messages & all tbe upsettings return

Hopefully you can slowly move on Ken

Take care

[Nosmo-King]

Ken, it is understandable how you're feeling. I still have Margaret's phone and some of her possessions. Do I look at them regularly? No.

But to me they are a comfort knowing part of her lives on. Absolutely nothing wrong with this. Whatever the memories that can be jogged by an item, photo or other possessions nurture and cherish them. They are yours and yours only to act as a reminder of happier times.

Stay strong

[BoroRedKen]

Thanks Nosmo.

Does being able to think like that really come after time? I get there are no fast and holding rules for grieving but i struggle still after a year.

Once a week i have to attend "training to learn not to write an offensive word".

So its all about my offence and the damage i could of caused (im not over egging the pudding) but nobody gets that Carmen was very ill when i was nicked then died before it was sorted so every bloody week im back to that nightmare time.
There just seems no escape.

[BoroRedKen]

Quicksilvera.

I fucking hope you hug and tell your wife you love her more everyday.

You were the only complainant to Cleveland Police.

You cunt.

[Nosmo-King]

Thanks Nosmo.

Does being able to think like that really come after time? I get there are no fast and holding rules for grieving but i struggle still after a year.

Once a week i have to attend "training to learn not to write an offensive word".

So its all about my offence and the damage i could of caused (im not over egging the pudding) but nobody gets that Carmen was very ill when i was nicked then died before it was sorted so every bloody week im back to that nightmare time.
There just seems no escape.

Ken, yes time does make it easier to come to terms with. Forget any thoughts of guilt. The circumstances you faced personally were not of your doing. Be of no doubt Carmen would have continued to support you to the hilt.

Not meant to sound harsh but life lives on - and she would  want that. Gradually and slowly a new life emerges - and whilst you never forget other issues become the fulcrum of your life. This will happen- I can assure you of that.

[BoroRedKen]

🙏👍